Expectations of a Nemesis

What did you expect from me?
I've already told you what I can not be.

But what I will always be is...

The love you could not reach,
The lesson you could not teach,
The problem you can not solve,
and the issue you can never resolve.

I will always be

The best sex you never had
The never happy, always sad or mad.
The time you could not keep
and the dead weight when you try to take a leap
of faith....

I'v already shown you what I can not be
and what your expectation mean to me

I will always go against your grain
just to cause you pain

Yes, I have made you my nemesis, I don't know why
and If you asked me, I could not lie

So what what did you expect from me?
I have told you before to just let me be me.

Evolution of You, Always Follow Your Spirit

I have let a few weeks pass since my last post. Partly because I am experiencing some new, profound, and life changing events in my personal life. I was waiting for the right words to write the words of my expressions.

I can start by saying that life is a little tricky and it wouldn't be worth it if we knew everything. It can be beautiful if we allow ourselves to evolve in every situation, no matter if it is good or bad. However, it is often very difficult to see the light at the end of a tunnel, especially when we have been travelling in the dark for so long. My motto for life's journey is to follow your spirit, it doesn't lie.

A lot of times, we are holding ourselves back by holding on to something that is obviously holding us back. In our own determination, we tend to persist that things, people, and situations belong in our lives, even though they have proven over and over that they do not belong because they are not good for our evolution. But yet we are afraid to let go and it doesn't matter how many times have we heard "When a door closes another opens" we don't believe it.

Who would have guessed that I would have found my real father at the age of 32 over the past few weeks. By following my spirit, I have been afforded this opportunity to open a new door for the purpose of evolution. I feel blessed, excited, and thankful for the opportunity.

Nothing ever happens by accident, whether we realize it or not. Evolving means to grow, develop, mature, and change. This comes with occasional surprises because evolving is ever changing. No, it is not always easy to open doors of opportunity while closing doors that are not to proceed in the next step of our evolution. In fact,we as human beings do not always understand why certain events have to occur that provoke pain, confusion, and unrest in our minds for a time. In my situation, new doors are opening, others are closing, questions are answered, I am evolving. I am grateful.

Be You...Conscious!

Sankofa Vision Inspiration

My fellow conscious and green friend Leia Lewis, founder of Sankofa Vision Inc. a community based organization organized in 2004 located in Shreveport, LA. Sankofa Vision, Inc. is working to make green and conscious education and benefits available to local residents who are primarily low income by celebrating and cultivating the art, culture, and community life of people of African descent.

Sankofa Vision offers programs to increase public awareness of the rich history and interconnected traditions of black people in Louisiana, the south, the
U.S.A., and throughout the global African Diaspora. These programs include:
organic gardening, performing arts, music, literature, cuisine, business, science, and spirituality.

Sankofa Vision Inc. plans to build a "Green School" designed by students Louisana Tech.

articles here:

http://www.shreveporttimes.com/article/20090518/NEWS01/905180313

http://shreveporttimes.com/article/20090517/NEWS01/905170313/Local+Sankofa+organization+plans++green+school+

Precious - A Must See

I often write and speak about issues that effect the spirit and self esteem of women, specifically, African American Women and girls. I watched this trailer today and almost came to tears because I could feel the pain that is still so very prevalent in our communities today. Low self esteem and self hatered is a negative cycle that creates and breeds many issues in African American culture. Although it has secretly plagued many generations of black women and our communities, it is finally coming to the light in hopes of healing and creating positive future generations. I hope that this reflection will inspire all to keep pushing toward greatness and self love. I can't wait for the release.



This movie was inspired by a novel Push by Sapphire

Thanks Mahogony Momma of the Black Moms Club for sending

Be You...Conscious

What's In Your neighborHood?

The planet is dying and we are closing our eyes flocking to beauty supply and liquor stores, nail shops, and fast food establishments in our neighborhoods owned primarily by businesses that are not helping or lift our communities or save the planet. The truth is, we as a culture, are being left behind in the efforts to have a positive impact our environment because we lack knowledge, resources, and balance.

The global crisis affects all who reside on this earth, and my fear is that if we don’t make an effort to get involved, our survival as a human race is in stake. We must find new ways of patronizing and conducting business in our communities regardless of our socio-economic status. We must demand a standard of quality and social responsibility from those profiting from us. We can act together to do it.

Education is the key to addressing the global crisis we are facing, there is hope for creating opportunities to heal and lift our communities out of poverty, but we must first we must learn how to use natural resources more wisely and efficiently, and collectively. It is imperative that we become more conscious of the products and services being marketed to our unconscious and disadvantage communities by asking, is this product serving a purpose? is it helping or hurting our minds, bodies, and/or spirits?

Let us not be left behind, instead, let us help build our communities on values and standards that benefit us equally as partners on this planet.

The Unconscious Disadvantage

The unconscious mind says, it is what it is according to the universe
So what?...But for love and life, what could be worse?

How long can we continue to turn our cheeks as if everything is ok?
is our reality simply what we make it today?

Is disadvantaged unconscious awareness really worth short term satisfaction?
or is our reaction?

We must believe we can find solutions and proceed rationally
or else, it will be just another missed opportunity.

The truth lies within you and me
to give hope to future humanity.

And I say, so what if you hear about a green economy,
everywhere but your community!

Because it all starts with opening your mind,
and making a conscious choice not to be blind.

I'm doing my part,
and that's a start...

So what about you?
What are you going to do?

It's Official

I have just arrived back from my training at the Green For All Academy in Oakland, CA. I must say, it was a truly extraordinary and inspirational event filled with so much positive energy and love for each other, as individuals, as well as for the planet. I am committed, as a spokesperson to do my part by helping to create and maintain sustainable inner city and impoverished urban communities through green opportunities, healing, and conscious awareness. I will be starting with South Dallas more specifically Oak Cliff. So please be on the look out for information on upcoming events.

By the way, I highly recommend reading "The Green Collar Economy" by Van Jones. This book is honest and true about the issues facing society as it relates to the environment and various inequelities based on socio-economic status. It also gives workable solutions for bridging the gaps in creating a green economy by including "All" people in the movement. Check it out!

Be You... Conscious